So much, so much change it's frightening and thrilling at the same time. I am working so hard to arrive at a balanced life and seem to have forgotten to have one while I work at one. We are moving into a new house. It really is my dream house. I want so badly for things to be "normal". I want to have permanent things in my life. A house that we just are in for...well forever really. Schools the kids know they will attend. A job that makes me happy and smarter and brings in the money we need. An uncluttered house filled with things we love. And, a relationship with my husband that is peaceful and passionate. I've been reading Pema Chodron at my friend's request. She is a Buddhist nun who writes about letting go of fear. But she writes about so much that I think will be helpful to me in finding a balance. Today she wrote about aspiring to reconnect with the natural flexibility of our being and to help others do the same. I am so flexible, sometimes too much so I fear. I will bend and bend and bend when I really want to grow roots and never move. I find I am more sure of my flexibility than of my rooting.